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07 May 2011 @ 01:43 am
I know no one uses this thing anymore(including me) since everyone's sorta moved over to facebook or twitter or even(more recently) Tumblr. But LJ really is the perfect place to vent and vent properly.

I'm not sure whats wrong with me lately but I'm feeling really really angry and upset. And its happening ALL the time lately.
I keep getting angry at school, teachers, assignments, failure to do assignments well, work, new co-workers, lack of useful time, lack of sleep, family, myself etc etc etc.
I dunno if its lack of sleep or...I'm just kinda stressed out right now but so many things are just.....

just really BOTHERING me. I am in a constant state of BOTHERED. Of course it fluctuates but its almost always there and I'm absolutely not sure why at all. I WANTED to think it was because I started a new medicine but its been going on for a while now.

Things that are supposed to be fun like drawing and cosplay are bothering me. Like.....When I do fun art it never seems any good and cosplay...well there's a whole other ball of aggravation. I work too slow to make things all the time LIKE I WANT TO. I just wanna do it for fun but it seems like....I dunno like all the fun is draining out of it lately. Like it kinda feels like I'm putting in (albeit slowly) a bunch a BUUUNCH of effort and its kind of....not....either appreciated or up to par to expectations or ....I don't even know.

I'm running outta steam here. But the biggest problem I have is that when I try to analyze what might be wrong with me or why I'm angry all the time I feel like......What the hell do I have reason to be angry for? A fair question but for me it seems like its an accusatory question. Like I'm sort of telling myself that my problems are mundane. WHICH I FEEL LIKE THEY ARE! Like why am I worried about cosplay when I should be thankful I have a house??

I dunno. Long story short, I'm sorry if I'm seeming like a shit all the time lately. I'm just upset about a lot of things that I'm not even sure why.
Current Mood: angryangry
ottersharkottershark on May 7th, 2011 09:02 am (UTC)
you're getting a massage this week. i didnt realize it was really this bad
The Doodlemaster 2000: YABAI O___Odancingskeleton on May 7th, 2011 03:57 pm (UTC)
Haha its probably not as bad as I'm making it sound.